Keep on keeping on

Heavy in rehearsals again.

I need to learn these lines. I cannot act until the script is out of my hands. I cannot get the script out until I learn the lines.

Vicious circles my friends.

Why do I write these?

Why?

Fuck.


The world around me is collapsing, dying, drowning, waiting, sleeping, crying, alone. But I am keep having some of the best days of my life day to day. I don't need to take on anyone else's suffering, but I wish there was a way to lease out some happiness. I just... don't know how to get it jumpstarted.

Please, everyone, just believe and have faith. It's not my style to tell you what to believe in or where to place your faith, but damnit believe in something and someone and you'd know that you did try, especially when you can't be there.